I used to think I was shy. I am not shy, really, I have come to realize, I just happen to hold my cards very closely to myself.
When it comes to play dates with the kids, I would rather drive an hour to visit friends from back in the day and have our kids play than hang out with a mother who has children close to same age as my kids in my current location. (Exception: The Coolest Kid’s Mom).
I would rather hang out with a few select friends than have a crowd to run with again. Most nights, I am happy sitting on the couch with Joshua, reading or watching a dorky science fiction television show. I am content in the quiet of the evening. I enjoy an occasional Ladies Night Out with my friends, sure, but being at J’s side is even more fun.
I have come to realize why this is. It is very hard to trust someone, very hard.Â I have found that many women are still mentally in eighth grade. How does one get married, raise a family and not leave mentality that behind?Â How do you trust a woman like that? You are not able to, so you have to hold your cards close.
One thing I look forward to with this move it the chance to return to anonymity. No one will know who we are. Sure, they may notice us as the family with 3 then 4 young ones who talk funny, but that is all they will ever have to know. I cannot express how much I look forward to this!